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Here lately I have had mixed emotions about how I feel. I really am relieved. I realized that being lied to that much is emotional and mental abuse. He destroyed every ounce of trust I had for anyone. It is stressful to constantly feel like your being lied to, and in my case I was. The last few years have just been full of lies. The stress was overwhelming at times and it was often compounded by being a single mom. I want my marriage to be over but it is just hard to watch 13 years of a relationship come to a close. It is like mourning the loss of a loved one. I struggle with the need for human interaction and the strong desire to isolate myself. It took every ounce of courage and strength I had to go to my clubs Federation Day last week. I am glad I went, I love my girls and they are incredible support.
There is an old saying that, “a true friend walks in when the world walks out.” I realized how many true friends I have. We might not always talk, but they always show up when I need them. Last night my Navy friend from 16 years ago, made plans to come us from Arizona in July. We haven’t seen each other in 14 years. There are some bonds that are never truly broken.
Today another dear friend and I went to lunch, and then got our kiddos together to play. We laughed about how much our lives have changed. It is nice to see a smiling face and have a few laughs over a beer. Last week, I mended a another friendship that I thought was irrevocably broken. I had cherished her like a sister, and I was always heartbroken losing that friendship. It was a spot of blue sky on a very cloudy day.
Well this Belle has to run. Gabe and I are going to watch my nephew play ball, along with seeing a few old friends. Gabe also go a invite to a pool party. I am looking forward to seeing how the future unfolds for the both of us.
Happy Friendship Friday,